Time as Water

So, it's been a minute since I've posted but I'm hoping to do this challenge #escapril for National Poetry Month. You write a poem a day based on the prompt. Today's prompt is #changeofstate. I was playing with a few different ideas but landed on this...

Time, 

    the ever changing,

        the ever constant.

Moving like water, 

    powerful as the rushing river, 

                    and quiet as the frozen stillness of ice.

In times of struggle we feel it's heaviness,

        in the thick droplets of rain, 

            that pounds in our ears,

                    a strong and steady drumbeat,

                      that threatens to drown us as we shed our own tears, 

                         pulling us further into the wake.

On brighter days, 

    those pools of water turning to puddles that slowly disappear. 

        A slow moving vapor that floats and shimmers in the light. 

            We breathe it in. 

                           Taste it.

                                Enjoy it's weightlessness. 

 

Everything and Nothing. 

    Embrace it.

Time, 

    the ever constant, 

            the ever changing.

Words

Hundreds of times
I could hear people say these words.
Thousands.
But that's all they are,
Until I hear them from your lips.

It is what it is.

This is how it is.
This is how it will always be.
Acceptance.
I will never have you on my terms.

A Few Random Short Poems

Puzzle
Creator of this puzzle
that I call home.
The maker of this body
that creaks and moans.
Tell me where to find
the pieces to fill these empty holes;
the missing pieces to the puzzle,
or just that one piece, that will make me whole.

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Hide away,
so you can't see,
this evil demon
that lives inside of me.


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Something

There is something
about the way you smile.

I want to be the reason
you smile that way.

I don't even know you,
but there's something about you,
that makes me think I do.

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I fall apart.
    You pick up the pieces.
    You say you'll make me whole.
There I go again.
Believing your lies.

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The inability to sleep keeps me here
Punching letters on the keyboard.

Staring into the
sick
florescent glow of the screen. 

These words on the screen are not mine.
They belong to the me that I left behind.

I'd ask you to remember her,
but try as you might, you won't.
I carved her out of my skin when I met you.
Without her,
it was easier to give in to you.
Give in to all your little pleasantries and not-so-humorous jokes.

But you're gone.
And the joke is on me.

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Together we lied
In a bed made of promises
that were only kept in the darkness.

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I let you
let me fall.
Blindsided by your sweet words
and silent entrancing ways.

Slipping and sliding into the darkness
that I let you lead me into.
Weakness.
Selfishness.

Loneliness.

I'd Rather be Deluded

I flatter myself,
thinking you will read these words I've written.
I picture you;
curling up, with a mug in one hand,
eager,
for the pleasure of knowing what's on my mind.

I delude myself with this fantasy.

You will not do these things.
You will not take the time to read these words.
I've already been forgotten.
Tossed aside.
A plaything you got bored with.
You get bored so easily.

Now is my chance.
You're not paying attention, so,
I can call you all those nasty things
Society has taught me to think.
But I won't.

I can't.

I'm not angry.
Just sad for you.

Your weakness.
You will always be alone.
No matter how many people surround you.
No matter how many people you bring to your bed.
Alone.
Your weakness.
Fear of being left alone.
It will be a vicious cycle for you.

But this is not what I want to see when I think of you.
So, I won't.
Delusion is better then the truth.

I hope you enjoyed your cup of tea.

Silence

Kicking ideas around yet again. Always welcome comments and opinions.


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Communication is the key,
But in silence we find,
We have so much more in common.


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Caged:
by your silence;
Your decision to leave me in the
Darkness
Created by your absence of words.

In this empty prison cell,
You've left me with only mixed emotions
To feed upon.

Screaming for your attention;
For some sustenance.
Something more than hushed promises,
that only promise to be broken.
Something more than quiet excuses
that are meant to console.

Save me from these bare walls.
Give me truths;
Even if it hurts.
Set me free
Before I soon slip away,
consumed by your stillness.

Magic

In the darkness you stood.
Untouchable.
Some magic I would never master.
My hands,
too shaky.
My words,
fumbled.
Spoken-in-too-rushed-sentences.

I, a mere mage,
in a world of masters;
blending into the woodwork
of some distant place you'll never again enter.

What I once was,
has become
nothing.

Some separate darkness
engulfs me.
I am lost.
In the memory of the
of your smile;
the lingering softness of your touch.